The Borne Legacy

I'm a very forgettable person. This is something I've learned early on. When I say forgettable I'm not confusing it with forgetful. I mean people don't remember me AT ALL. I know I should be unnerved by it, but being forgotten completely is a big leap up from not being visible at all. In my early 20's, folks especially those who assumed they were socially or officially higher than me, never seemed to notice me. I'd greet people and sometimes, they'd nod at the sound from an invisible human and sometimes my voice would just ricochet off their ear lobes as they went about greeting other people in the room or whatever. Same thing with their eyes. When and if they fell on me, they would just glaze over like I was thin air. VERY THIN air. iIf the guy was tall, I'd assume I didn't make it to his line of vision.

With age, my invisibility is on an increase. If it happens in "successful rooms." Rooms where men and women who think they're at the apex of their success or have experienced it at some point or in some places. I just assume they suffer from memory loss or something like a social anxiety and makes ME sympathetic towards them. Poor folks, they can't enjoy my scintillating personality ( hahah!) That's the benefit of growing old. You get new perspectives. On the streets, it's a relief. Not being cat called or winked at or being looked at lecherously is a delicious outcome of being past my prime.

The perks of being ignored are more far reaching than just feeling safer on the streets. It is freeing. I've been looked through upto this point - I don't have to worry about the FUTURE. I don't worry about what my legacy will be? I leave that job to the filthy rich, the deluded and the boring ones.

Folks with little imagination and a lot of resources often suffer the question, 'how will I be remembered?' So they build temples and cultural centers and then tell you how they have the perfect work -life balance, and have super stars for kids. I say unimaginative, because if you've ever heard any influential ( money, fame or power wise) person talk, it is the variation of the same old 4-5 things :

I was smart (and born with a silver spoon in my mouth)

I did so much for the underprivileged ( never mind my own debauchery and criminal deeds)

I am very widely loved (politesse demands we don't roll our eyes AND brown nosers are not a sign of popularity )

I KNOW how to have fun ( UGGGHHHHHH they are the most boring ones).

and

I'm a pioneer ( yep right, these folks invented the wheel and made major breakthroughs in talking about themselves)

There are plenty of hardworking folks, intelligent people, kind humans, and pioneers all over the world. who will be remembered for centuries. It's the tedious ones that are forgotten as soon as they cross over into afterlife. Hopefully!

As Maya Angelou once said - Legacy is not what you leave behind, but what you leave with others.